Thanks for visiting my blog Heart of David at www.saultodavid.com today! I was brought up in church. While I would love to say my journey to salvation was quick and easy, that was not the case. Growing up church was the focal point of my home life. If the church doors were open we were there. When I was 18 I started sporadically attending church. I was honestly done with the whole church scene. I remember sitting in my room on the floor, leaning back against my wall, knees to my chest, elbows on my knees, and head in my hands praying that if being a Christian meant behaving the way I had seen many Christians act, I did not want any part of it. When I was 22 the church was sporadically attending was going through a Pastor change. I started attending a little more frequently as new Pastor's came to try out for the position. I was desperate for a change. I needed something I could grab a hold of in my life. I remember praying to God to send someone I could believe in. The next Sunday morning service I attended would change the whole trajectory of my life.
The first time I saw the man who would become our new pastor, I was terrified. He looked very similar to an ex from my past who I had a difficult relationship with. I thought God must have a sick twisted sense of humor. If this was the man God was sending to answer my prayer, I was out. The moment he started preaching I knew there was something different about him. He spoke with a sense of honesty I had never heard out of a pastor. He wasn't projecting himself as someone who had it all together. He spoke honestly about his struggles. For the first time I felt like I could relate to another Christian.
A couple Sundays later the church held a vote on if he would become our new pastor. He got installed as the new pastor the next Sunday. I started attending church more regularly and the walls had built so high around my heart slowly came crumbling down. I got more involved, became a member and started helping out in the children's ministry. I felt like my life was really starting to get on track. I connected with many people at that church that changed my life for the better.
A few ago the pastor left and it felt like the world around me was crumbling. I couldn't see how I could continue in my Christian walk with a different pastor. I had built my Christian walk centered around one person and I had to learn to how to walk in my Christian faith on my own.
As I began to reestablish my Christian walk centered around prayer I made the decision to find a new church home. It has been a struggle to find a new church home and the pandemic has not helped the situation. I have faith that in this coming year I will find a new church home and look forward to sharing my life experiences through the book studies I cover.
I pray that God blesses you through this blog and appreciate all prayers you would send my way.
Sincerely,
Heart of David